My mom

So first off I would like to say thank you for your prayers. There are so many suffering, sick, but also many healthy and able to enjoy life so thank you for adding a prayer in for my family. My prayers were needed for my mom. Recently we had a cancer scare.

2011 beginning of my journey

Do you ever feel like I won't get that cancer because it doesn't run in my family or maybe you think you are invincible to cancer. You could be the thinker that says I know I am going to get that cancer my mom, grandma, uncle had it. Either way we never know what God has in store for our future.

I am sure my mom didn't think she was going to have Parkinson's disease years ago. It didn't affect her at the beginning but as years past I see my mom having trouble to function. My mom always said years ago, "You all just wait until I get older" because we really took it in as "no big deal" because she had little symptoms. She has tried many medications some good, some bad but nothing was a cure of course. At this point in her life and in my mine, it's sad to see your mom slowly move, shake without control, to have to talk slowly and really concentrate in what she does. My mom stays active and used to be able to workout everyday but now it's three days a week because her body isn't allowing her to function correctly. Her feet cramp, her legs move different, her body and mind are not in one accord. She isn't  the grandmother I imagined her to be or that she was in the past. She can't be active with my boys like she was with her first grand kids. My mom is limited due to Parkinson's disease.

2011, my mom has always supported me

We recently found out she had a lump in her breast. My first thought is how is that possible that doesn't happen to our family. I thought I'd never get breast cancer. I am being honest and that's what I thought. Yes is possible for anyone but for my genes stand point my family has not had breast cancer. This was so scary for us. It was scary because she is my mom, my children's Nani and she has a disease already that has weakened her body. I kept praying please God don't let it be cancer because I don't think she can make it through chemo.  I was sad.  As mother hen of the family this deeply stressed me out, been on my mind 24/7, and freaked me out! I only reached out to a handful of friends while asking the world of FB for prayers knowing I know some really kick butt prayer warriors on there!

God is faithful! After removal of the lump there was no cancer!!! Praise report!!! Woot! woot! Yes I said it...NO CANCER!!!!!
Thanks for the prayers.

So through the trial I have learned the following about my mom:

-Regardless of our past and my need to nurture and be mother hen, she is my mom. I love her and need her.

-My mom does not let anything get in her way of living. She won't let this or Parkinson's stop her from moving on and living everyday!

-She is strong, she loves the Lord


-She is an awesome Nani, she is a great mentor

-She loves my boys and can handle my twinados even if it's brief

-She has a connection with my Benjamin that I will never understand

-She  is inspiring, motivating, and loving

-She knows how to push my buttons and I hers.

-She may be limited but that doesn't stop her from living.

-She is alive, breathing, walking, talking and still can have some fun

-She is tiny, eats like a bird but orders the biggest most expensive meal.

-She is my biggest cheerleader in my journey and always there to support me!

-I didn't imagine our life in this direction but it's still be fun, blessed and much better!

-She is loved, she is lovely, she is my mom!


And in the words of my mom:
We have never been a rich family but our family is definitely blessed!

I love you mom, and through billions of trials between us from childhood to adulthood, through  the imagined life and reality life God built a strong bridge for us.  We are connected through this bridge as mother/daughter, as mothers together, as wives, as women and servants. God made us, blessed us and holds us!

Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt his name together.—Psalm 34:3

Song in my heart today!

This song has been in my heart today along with another song as well. Hope you are having a blessed mid week! Sharing this song in hopes of it blessing you as much as it has blessed me!