Good, the bad and the ugly!

Well, well, well, look who decided to blog a bit today. I took a step back for awhile but as I cozy up in my bed with my kids I think this is a perfect time to blog without snoozing back to sleep. Christmas has arrived at our house and we have a new friend. Our elf on the shelf Flynn. Follow me on instagram @kimmirae98 to see what trouble Flynn gets in.

Today I want to blog about my kids. The good, the bad, the ugly!

Benjamin

Good: Great reader, great eater, great corrector when you say something incorrect be ready for Mr. Correction to catch you. Great fact learner of History. Great snuggle buddy, he has a loving heart to help people. Easy to make friends, this homeschooled kid has no socialization problems what so ever! Awesome help sometimes even with his brothers. Doesn't like to be hurt or see other hurt. Mom's night owl buddy, but Dad's hard worker buddy. Caring and loving and a heart of gold. Pure joy from this kid!

Bad: Shoves toys or clothes is places they don't belong. He pouts really good like a two year old. He stays up at night ready until he falls asleep which means he sleeps on the floor near the night light not his bed. Lies up the wazoo just to get us off his back. Example, "Did you pick up your room? " "Yes" ......thinking we won't check and than when we do he says "Okay I lied" GRRRRRR!

Ugly: Attitude just like mom had when she was that age. It sure does catch up with you. We are working on it though :) Also ugly when he forgets to take a shower or remind mom to cut his nails...gross more like it.

Improvement: Working together as a family, attitude and learning to tie his own shoes!


Caleb

Good: Great sleeper, Great eater, Loves the outdoors and doesn't mind playing solo while his other two brothers play together or fight together. Great cuddle buddy and great smile although you can hardly catch him in a picture smiling.

Bad: He is sneaky, He doesn't have a problem walking away and getting lost, he doesn't like to share, he cries and doesn't calm down very fast because he gets so frustrated. He is most likely to get in trouble first.

Ugly: His stubbornness, his pump on his head from heading the wall while rocking himself to sleep. (Pillows everywhere have been placed on his bed fyi) and wakes ups grumpy 75% of the time.

Improvements: Thumb sucking, sneaky side and using words more


Levi

Good: Such a loving brother, looks up to Ben, protects his brothers, joyful giggle, great artist and learner. He tries his best to be independent and is a team player. Wakes ups in an excellent mood.

Bad: Sharing and knowing that he can't do everything Big brother does. Patience too.


Ugly: Picking his nose and eating whatever comes out of it, sticky face and sticky hands.


Improvements: cleanliness, sharing and letting mom and dad hug more :)


So here is some of the good, the bad and the ugly for my kids!

Toodles for now!

My mom

So first off I would like to say thank you for your prayers. There are so many suffering, sick, but also many healthy and able to enjoy life so thank you for adding a prayer in for my family. My prayers were needed for my mom. Recently we had a cancer scare.

2011 beginning of my journey

Do you ever feel like I won't get that cancer because it doesn't run in my family or maybe you think you are invincible to cancer. You could be the thinker that says I know I am going to get that cancer my mom, grandma, uncle had it. Either way we never know what God has in store for our future.

I am sure my mom didn't think she was going to have Parkinson's disease years ago. It didn't affect her at the beginning but as years past I see my mom having trouble to function. My mom always said years ago, "You all just wait until I get older" because we really took it in as "no big deal" because she had little symptoms. She has tried many medications some good, some bad but nothing was a cure of course. At this point in her life and in my mine, it's sad to see your mom slowly move, shake without control, to have to talk slowly and really concentrate in what she does. My mom stays active and used to be able to workout everyday but now it's three days a week because her body isn't allowing her to function correctly. Her feet cramp, her legs move different, her body and mind are not in one accord. She isn't  the grandmother I imagined her to be or that she was in the past. She can't be active with my boys like she was with her first grand kids. My mom is limited due to Parkinson's disease.

2011, my mom has always supported me

We recently found out she had a lump in her breast. My first thought is how is that possible that doesn't happen to our family. I thought I'd never get breast cancer. I am being honest and that's what I thought. Yes is possible for anyone but for my genes stand point my family has not had breast cancer. This was so scary for us. It was scary because she is my mom, my children's Nani and she has a disease already that has weakened her body. I kept praying please God don't let it be cancer because I don't think she can make it through chemo.  I was sad.  As mother hen of the family this deeply stressed me out, been on my mind 24/7, and freaked me out! I only reached out to a handful of friends while asking the world of FB for prayers knowing I know some really kick butt prayer warriors on there!

God is faithful! After removal of the lump there was no cancer!!! Praise report!!! Woot! woot! Yes I said it...NO CANCER!!!!!
Thanks for the prayers.

So through the trial I have learned the following about my mom:

-Regardless of our past and my need to nurture and be mother hen, she is my mom. I love her and need her.

-My mom does not let anything get in her way of living. She won't let this or Parkinson's stop her from moving on and living everyday!

-She is strong, she loves the Lord


-She is an awesome Nani, she is a great mentor

-She loves my boys and can handle my twinados even if it's brief

-She has a connection with my Benjamin that I will never understand

-She  is inspiring, motivating, and loving

-She knows how to push my buttons and I hers.

-She may be limited but that doesn't stop her from living.

-She is alive, breathing, walking, talking and still can have some fun

-She is tiny, eats like a bird but orders the biggest most expensive meal.

-She is my biggest cheerleader in my journey and always there to support me!

-I didn't imagine our life in this direction but it's still be fun, blessed and much better!

-She is loved, she is lovely, she is my mom!


And in the words of my mom:
We have never been a rich family but our family is definitely blessed!

I love you mom, and through billions of trials between us from childhood to adulthood, through  the imagined life and reality life God built a strong bridge for us.  We are connected through this bridge as mother/daughter, as mothers together, as wives, as women and servants. God made us, blessed us and holds us!

Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt his name together.—Psalm 34:3

Song in my heart today!

This song has been in my heart today along with another song as well. Hope you are having a blessed mid week! Sharing this song in hopes of it blessing you as much as it has blessed me!

A Matured Renewal

Been pretty good about staying away from some so much social media. I had a very "different" maybe even a bit stressful week. It was way off than the course I was intending on taking. We ate like kings and I think last two weeks we ate to many carbs. I feel gross, my husband feels gross and we don't like it nor the scale!! So as far as eating.......we are back to the basics which is great for me because we don't do big dinners, just easy stuff (shakes,salads,etc) We are passed the stage of cravings and more like cleanse me of these carbs Lord!

Speaking of cleansing this month has really continued to change me although I was a bit discouraged last week. My mother's health is in the Lord's hands. No she is not on her death bed. More info to come after some results are given this week. We believe in God's will and we will never give up but being on pins and needles is not easy. Please pray for my mom and her health.
Back to the cleansing being apart of an amazing parent bible study, getting into God's word, more prayers and attending a church that God has me at, all has really help cleanse me spiritually and help me feel renewed. Started attending a church to encourage my mom and sister's family to come since they like it there, never thought it would be my home.

I broke down in service holding my baby crying to God one service as I as singing praises to him and I said " God you have me here, renew me like a child Lord. I need you like when I was a teenager, Lord! My light has died down Lord and it's my fault but I need you to take that guard off my heart and let your light shine, let your love come through Lord! I need you! "  In that moment I felt free again.

I still felt blessed previously don't get me wrong and I may not have "serious" trials other may face but I was facing things like:
-Not full of God.....a feeling of my glass was almost empty
-a bit of depression due to stress, weight,
finances
-feeling like wasted space
-I am not a good enough mom
-anger/impatience

Slowly God has been changing me and my family. I feel renewed as a wife, mother and a women. I feel a mature renewal especially since I am older and wiser. Ha! I haven't felt this spiritual connected for years. I have been missing out. It's not that I haven't had a relationship with God it's just at a different level, a connection.....freedom....amazing!

So long story short cutting back on things that may seem part of me won't be easy but fulfilling God's plan for me will be worth it. What does that mean? It means I may not be  able to do things I am used to or love. Maybe it will be not going to every group exercise but will have to ride my bike, run, run in the back like today, make my own Zumba routine or could mean no more blogging or FB for awhile. It's about making changes so I can be more focused on God and on my family.  You may think duh, I  could have told you that or maybe you think I am making poor choices. What I do know is my heart feels renewed, my God has a hold of my life and I want to follow him. Who knows what God has planned but I do know I am going to be much more in prayer, family time, in doing his works.

On the main menu this week:
Woven-women's bible study
Parent bible study
Kid's instant lessons Th-Friday
Preschool, Speech, homeschool, community/school day for Ben
Football game, football practice
Exercise 5 days this week
Read the word, pray, another good book everyday
Clean house
Cook clean, cook easy
Continue to look for a part time job via at home
I know I have more on my plate but this is all I can think of at the moment ;)

Blessings and love to you all!
Oh I have to have Sundays last verse Jeremiah 29:11.........JUST DON'T GIVE UP!!

Holy Moly Donut Shop!

Holy Moly Donut Shop! If you know the Friday movies than you know this saying. Not Friday the 13th but Friday with Ice Cube. Hahaaaa! Well Holy Moly it's been almost a month from keeping you updated!!! Well there is alot going on right now in my life! Here are a few things:
1. Flag football in which my husband coaches....Go Oregon Ducks!!!
2. Homeschooling Ben and we are loving it except Math! Haha!
3. I won third place in the Posh movement but was happy because I didn't think I was going to win! 39 inches gone 5 lbs down!
4. My husband and I have been attending a Parent bible study called, Loving on Purpose.
5. I joined a new Challenge with our local gym Thrive and can't wait to get started on that!
6. I keep myself busy by doing a 30 day streaking challenge with some friends! Getting in 30 miles at least in 30 days! Streaking!!! Thanks Melissa V for inspiring me!

So that is 6 things that keep me busy but not everything.
I have two whirlwinds and a slow snail 7 year old.
With everything going on in my life I will try to blog when possible, it does keep me off other social media sites. It's so addiciting to sit there and live our lives from the internet. To think personal visits are almost gone since I can see pictures, your meals, your check-ins it's almost like I am with all my friends all over the world! It can be a good thing and a bad thing for me.  In order to grow into the parent I need to be and that my bible study had been teaching me I will be cutting back like a drug habit slowly at social media. I need to be more present.  I have a family to raise, I have a life to live, I have a beautiful trail right in front of my windows and as I gaze afar right now the leaves are slowly falling, they are changing colors and the fall breeze is coming. Those are the moments I want remember. Not someones check-in. I want to remember cleaning up 15 minutes before Dad gets home and all the boys work together to clean and when dad walks in it smells clean and he comes home to a peaceful household. I want to remember my naked twins hugging and them giggling!

So my goal to finish off this amazing year is to live my life to the fullest! Live to experience something new! Take a new breathe of air each day! The bible says Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD!!! Psalm 150:6

Yes life is not perfect there are some personal things I am battling and my family is battling but I am still going to praise him! He didn't and still doesn't give up me when I fail or have fallen! 

I plan to focus on being the best parent/wife God had made me to be which is making me change me all the way around and will also continue to focus on my health. I can't wait for this rest of the year...oh one last thing although I can use prayer in other areas with my family and I..... the one I would like to ask you all to pray for me is that I find a part time job or full time that I can work from home. I have been out of work for almost 3 years now it's time to start from home. Thank you!

I am using this verse again because it's what has really been placed in my heart this week!

I got a makeover because I won!! Thanks Posh Salon in Madera!

Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Psalm 51:10-12

Bike trials not bike trails

So I know I am not alone but when is the last time you road a bike? 

For me it's been well over 15 yrs. I purchased a bike trailer/stroller for my boys recently and decided it was time for a bike. I have seen all people of shapes and sizes on bikes on the trail so I thought it's as simple as riding a bike right? NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

First, I had to get a girls bike because I am so short but when I got home it was so hard!!! Riding a bike is not easy and being overweight is not easy!!! Both combined well that's a whole different "scale".  I was so scared and couldn't get going. I couldn't grasp the pedals and it was even midnight so no one was around and I gave up! I was sweating, trying my best and hurting my legs while I was at. I went back to Walmart and returned the girls mountain bike. Fail!!!!

The next day, I decided I can't give up so I surfed the web for what bikes are best of overweight people and most sites said a beach cruiser. I was afraid to purchase another bike and fail but I decided to do it anyways, I had that bike trailer and had to use it other than a jogging stroller! My bike came in less than a week and when my husband went to pick it up he said "I am on my way so be ready to go for a bike ride." Which means is you bought this bike, I picked it up and so let's do this! My husband wasn't going to listen to any of my excuses so I decided to pray and ask God to help!

As he locked the trailer on his bike I had the privilege of practicing riding in front of my busy street as everyone watched. Not a pretty thing but this overweight gal sucked her gut in......I am mean her pride in and focused on the bike and I finally did it!! I have to say that the saying "It's as easy as riding a bike" is false!   Sorry riding is bike is far from easy!!! We went for a ride for two miles on our trail and I made it!

Before the hell ride

During the week to come I went up to 3 miles on a street route which was scary. Maybe it's because it was dark and late! But also I am not quite use to traffic yet. 

 Just recently conquered another bike fear which was pulling 65 plus pounds of twinados behind my bike.

After the ride, hanging out with no electricity

Why did I chose it on crazy weather day I will never know. We went for 3.5 miles and headed on the trail for two miles and I saw the lightening but was thinking what the heck lets go for another mile or so. I headed south from the trail and that's when the wind started picking up really bad. I had to pull over and cover up my babies so dirt and leaves would stop getting in their eyes. I turned right and headed west after the wind storm hit and thought okay we need to hurry as I felt the drops come on my face. Shish what did I get myself and my boys into.  Next thing after the drops the wind help me proceed west but here comes my north turn before hitting my street and that was okay just a bit windy but THAN it was heading east towards home now!!! I swear the wind was my enemy, the force was pulling me back and it was so strong!!! I had to push and push and thought I had to get my babies home. It almost felt like slow motion because I was peddling so slow because the wind was holding me down. It was awful, I wanted to quit and give up but I saw my husband from afar whom just got home from his second job so I peddled and keep thinking I was Dorothy because the storm felt just like she went through the storm and struggling to get home before the tornado hit in the first part of Wizard of OZ. My husband was my Auntie Em looking for me, but he wasn't really.  It was the hardest pull on my way home but I made it and some of my neighbors saw me because thanks for the humid wonderful summer storm my lights were out!! Well I did it!! I am happy!

Lightening! It went straight down and sideways!

In closing I just wanted to let you know with everything going on in my life homeschooling, reorganizing, getting healthy I am afraid I can't commit to blogging everyday! Family first and my health. I had a bit of a health scare last week and really took a breather from everything to see where my stress was coming from. God is my healer and I know his hand is upon me. This week I am more focused to overcome my bumps from last week and I know I will overcome!






Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you
1 Peter 5:7

Better late than never!

Yummy Blueberry oatmeal w/flax seed plus the PB

So it's past midnight but yesterday was crazy day! I had a beautiful blog I wanted to do about my awesome morning workout on Tuesday, than my yummy oatmeal w/added energy banana nut peanut butter. I was going to show you my pile of paperwork I had to organize and everything I threw away. I even found this funny note from Benjamin he wrote to Rob and I. But Everything went down the drain that afternoon............

After Organizing this is all trash!

The funny letter from Ben found in my pile of papers

Won't be throwing this away Ben!

I had to make phone calls for football since my husband is coaching and after organizing I found my room destroyed with papers everywhere. I also found the boys playing with my make up all over the freshly washed and clean bed sheets. After organizing all day I just cried, my husband wasn't home he was off doing his side job so it was just me and my twins. I was so down...........

Some may say brush it off but when you work so hard from being frazzled and unorganized to organized and feeling great.....that  being taken away from  you in a  second. A lot has to do with me  not really getting a break or a date night out in a while. We love taking our kids everywhere but my sanity suffers for it! Ha Ha You moms know what I am talking about! Needless to say although my options were not the best Dad brought dinner home and made me realize I need "me" time.Against his advisement I continued to organize our playroom/school room.

Waiting in the long line for TB Shots!

Yes I get to work out and it's awesome but I never do anything else for myself. Let's face it I have not had a hair cut in two years and I rather have holes in my clothes before my kids are without. That's what moms do at times. Baby steps in learning to take care of me of course.

Local Pomegranate juice in my shake!

Wednesday was going to be a long day, after all I stayed up with a little boy not feeling well the night before and had two twinados crawling in my bed way to early in the morning. I am talking Midnight, than 2am, 4am and 6am. At six I got up missed my PM run so I took those boys out and went for a slug run. Felt great after the night before. Made the boys favorite, pancakes and I had my morning pomegranate shake! Yummy in my tummy!

Next mission was to go to our local Health Department and wait in a long line to get my twins a TB test. Why because like 1/2 of our town I waited to the last minute and they needed it to start their speech preschool classes. We made it out in probably 1 1/2 hrs if not more but we survived! I must rest now and let these pills kick in, I had to pop some pills after doing stairs at our local stadium.....What a workout!!!!

One eye is on the playground watching one twin

Other eye on this twin

Still waiting in line so lets pick the flower pedals

Still waiting........ for our shots!

This is the tip for the day

Well that's all for now friends! I missed Blogging on Tuesday, Wordless Wednesday and here we are ready for Thirsty Thursday!!! Quench your thirst with water people! It's so important!!

P is for prepared, pre-planned, patience!

Well after a long night, late dinner and tossing and turning I once again failed in getting up early to workout with two awesome ladies. I disappointed myself since I woke up early tossing and turning but an hour too late and plus I really learned this week that morning workouts rock because when you get home breakfast fuel is so good and yummy!!!

This week I am going to aim for 8+ workouts, I completed 8 this past week could have been more but that sleep is the devil! Just kidding! I will also today prep meals for this week because this was def. my downfall this weekend. I usually have my chicken, veggies and salad prepped but not this weekend. Saturday and Sunday I did a  bit more overindulging. Maybe Friday a bit too.  I am going to be strict this week about using Fitnesspal to log in my meals too. Friday I had two slices of French bread pizza not big pieces but because I didn't prepare food and only had granola bar for breakfast after kickboxing.  When lunch rolled around and I had no snacks in between I was starving!!! 

On Saturday we had a yard sale and so I brought myself watermelon and granola bar again since I had to be out of the house by 6 am and didn't prepare anything. It's hard getting up with three kids in tow but thankfully they were in good moods knowing we were heading to Nani's house (my mom) Well I didn't get to eat my granola bar because God forbid I eat anything by myself without my kids. So watermelon it was for me and I was so hungry my mom had nothing in her house since she just moved in and was without a refrigerator! So after the yard sale what did I do? I headed to Sonic got a chicken sandwich(whole grain bun? not so bad) , fries and green tea :( Boo to the starving me, but Kudos too because usually I order like 6 things off the value menu or extra stuff with my meal. But shame on me! Did I snack after that..NO!!! because I fell asleep and woke up starving again.....boy my metabolism is kicking into high gear now! What did I do? I went to my moms to celebrate her birthday only too totally overindulge in pizza, a bit of cake and ice cream!! I felt like a piggy but I ate to fast and paid for it! Small meals rock, stuffing your face not so much!

Sunday after my three mile slug run I had eggs and spam made by hubby. Felt awesome, had a 4 oz Greek yogurt for lunch and knocked out! So what happened? I woke up starving again!!!! Guess what it was bible study/BBQ time at my sis' house. I ended eating a turkey wrap there than we ate dinner I would say about 9:30, I ate two chicken thighs, heaping helping of macaroni salad and some bread all so late!!!! I was so hungry........

Some of you may think you didn't do that bad, some may think I over did it but either way I know myself and I know better! These bad choices whether big or small won't help me succeed, am I sad, depressed or going to go on that cupcake binge? Ha ha ha no, realizing bad choices is better than  not recognizing that they exist. I move forward...I have my eye on the prize of HEALTH!


What could I have done to change what happened over the weekend?  Prepare meals and snacks!!! That's when the cravings and hunger kicks in for me. You may think what could be worst then this....well trust me this is a sample of what damage I can do to my body. Am I proud NO but have I learned.... YES!

So today as I am eating my oatmeal and drinking lemon water I will be making out my meals and preparing them today. I will also be have a homemade Zumba/Circuit session with the kids. We love to blast the music and just dance away!!  Last but not least I have not concluded organizing my house for when Ben starts school so yes I am very frazzled but I won't turn to food! I have laundry up the wazoo but I won't turn to sleep to make the blues go away! I will remain focused and look towards my goals. Giving up on myself, my house, my family is not a option! Pray that God continues to guide me, leads my family and gives me strength to endure another week!  Any prayer request for you please let me know!! Love praying for others too!


Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,  I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:12-14

Fiesta Friday

Had a great day so I am calling it Fiesta Friday. What I really needed was a siesta which is a nap!! Kickboxing was kick my booty boxing, my boulder legs where about to crumble again but I made it through this morning. Hung out with my mom for awhile in the afternoon which was really nice. The finale of Fiesta Friday ended with Fish tacos with pineapple salsa. Would have loved to take pictures but I really needed that siesta and was too tired!

Good night you all! Have a great night and weekend!!!

Knocking that chip off!

This morning I was really annoyed and carried a chip on my shoulder for a while. I am not a person that gets mad at the smallest thing unless your name is Caleb, Levi and Benjamin and that smallest thing is a messy room! But they were not my chip on my shoulder. I blamed it on others but really after a nap and prayer God revealed that I was just mad at myself.

Photo Credit: Tribesports.com

Right before my morning workout I weighed myself.....do you think the scale changed...NO!!! Can I feel the inches gone yes! I guess I was a bit bummed but I don't feel defeated I guess I was just mad at myself. The best part is that I don't feel like quitting, I feel like pushing through!

Prayer def. gave me peace. I also prayed for strength to clean my house and for patience with my kids. I am outgrowing my house and/or need things like a desk to put paperwork, etc away. Maybe just a huge storage will do. I have things everywhere and being unorganized gets me very frazzled.

photo credit: myblessedlife.net

In the end I am happy, grateful and blessed. My best friend text me to let me know there is a difference in me...blessing! Also as I was writing this God sent another blessing my way, mind you I hardly answer my phone but decided to pick it up as it said ZIN Lupe. (Zumba Instructor Network) No words can describe how blessed I am to have this gals in my life but just calling me to encourage me at that right time........priceless and a blessing indeed!

Have a great day!
 

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

Wordless Wednesday : Visiting Hairy Potter at Fresno Discovery Center is a must!

Which picture is recent? Don't worry it won't hurt my feelings if they all look the same ;)
Oh and he lost his glasses FYI

One phone call please!!!

This is how I felt like today, Can I just make one phone without all the commotion kids! Come on!!!

Weeble Wobble

Well to start off, I didn't get to blog yesterday since I was extra busy with my boys. I cleaned our house, I did a painting project, we went swimming, watched the Classic The fox and the hound and loved how much my boys enjoyed it. My boys also painted as you can see.  We also enjoyed Monsters University Jello Jigglers and I even organized my oldest son's school stuff since we are homeschooling this year again!

 Okay, okay enough about yesterday. Today I woke up to do a workout with my PM group. My legs should feel like the Jello in the picture but it was more like boulders coming down in destruction. I know all big people carry their weight different but I have huge legs, big tummy and bigger bubble butt. I am not putting myself down it's just a fact. I actual am jealous when I see another big person with normal legs or butt. If my stomach was all I had to work on man I be happy to do that! But I still push through even as the boulders crumble below me. I literally had breakfast in bed because I could not move my legs. Another amazing workout from a motivator and mentor of my Lupe. At the end with a smile on her face she said "See you tonight at Zumba!" In my mind I was thinking "WHAT!!" Is it going to be chair Zumba tonight because my legs won't make it! But she knows how to push me and knows if I can be there I will be, legs or no legs I will be there!

My breakfast in bed

 I can tell you a millions of stories right now funny, sad, happy, tearful of my kids. They are my life, my joy, my heart. But I can say all these things and not really give them what they need. They need their mom.......a healthy mom.........physically, mentally and spiritually. My goal is to give them the best of me! So I am going to share with you the physical part today. On my recent sand slug run I thought we took the most unflattering picture of me in the group photo. I decided to push my shoulder back in the pictures don't know why but it made my stomach pop out and grossed me out. I don't share with you this so you feel sorry for me but it's reality.

 I am on the far left with the stomach :)

I won't lie, I did get discourage and thought "Man I am putting in work why does my picture have to look gross?" I had to remember this didn't happen over night and if the scale says I am losing I am happy, if my inches are coming off I am happy. I am doing things others can't do like sand slug runs, or today we did crazy squat with the attack of the lunges! I am blessed to be able to move! My legs may feel like weeble wobbles but at least I have legs to move. I am breathing, I am alive and I am blessed. It may not be my favorite picture but lesson learned, always suck it in! Just kidding! But really like my mentor always says look from where you came from so I decided after today's workout to take pictures of myself. They didn't come out great because it was hard standing after today's workout, hehehe!  I am not putting pictures out there because it's fun or it's huge difference I am putting them out there to let you know I am human and I am making that change for me and my family. I am far from perfect but I am willing to show you my imperfections, my struggles, my joy, my defeats and my success. 

I know this weight is not coming off overnight but inch by inch....lb by lb...........small goals, BIG LIFE!

Mr. Sandman

Well last night didn't end as I wanted to after a fun night. Kids went to bed probably closer to 1 am. Me closer to 2 am.  Brushed off the negative and moved on.

I did get up to go to a sand slug run with the PM (posh movement) crew. I started off late because my tummy was hurting me. I ate to much fried stuff at my sisters house. No bueno. Drag my butt with a frown on and hand on my stomach all the way to the start of the trail. Of course no one was there.... I was late! Started sand slug run all myself and let me tell you I felt like I was in a dark forest ready for something scary to pop out! I was just waiting for the snake, rabbit, squirrel or homeless man to pop out so I booked it as much as my body/mind allowed me too.

Sand is hardcore!!! In my mind I had to hurry before the monster got me and I was in sinking sand! Well I did two miles solo in the sand but I did see the PM crew which was encouraging! It was awesome that they waited for me and cheered me on like I was Rocky climbing up a mountain but instead of lifting my hands up like Rocky they handed me a water bottle! What's better than that! These ladies rock!

Came home made a yummy mango vi-shake and added a little kick of chili on top. It was wonderful!!!


 Well folks that's all for now. The twinados are still knocked out as well as brother bear so we shall see how this goes. I have a huge load of laundry, a house to clean and three kids to entertain, oh and I am suppose to help my mom move.........locking my door in my bedroom all day is so tempting! But what's the fun in that right! Have a great day!

Family day+no workout=kick ur booty all weekend!

Blogging from my phone because I am still having fun with family. I just want to say happy birthday to two amazing people in my life Taylor Paige Miranda who celebrated today and also our awesome friend Joe Lopez. Unfortunately today I didn't get to work out Rob was off work so we stayed up late watching movies and slept in and I can't lie it felt so good. Shame on me because I didn't get to work out.:-( I have to say I did have a good family day and we even got to go to the movies together Rob went to one movie we went to another now it's time to get up early and do a fun slug Run with my posh movement group so good night folks! Be blessed!!!

Taylor Paige

Joe and his boys

Mornings are bittersweet

I have a love hate relationship with mornings.

Reminds me of my mornings even though I rarely drink Coffee

Love mornings because:
Workouts are fun in the morning
Fresh air
Love seeing people walking and working out in the morning
Relaxing, it's nice to have "me" time...nice, quiet and peaceful
I feel like a big girl waking up like real person
I feel constructive




Hate mornings because:
I am a night owl and can stay up really late
If you get up in the morning and are a night owl it sucks!!!!!
My eyes hurt trying to stay open
I feel like I have a hangover
Sleeping feels so good
I love to sleep and hate feeling like a drag :)

These are only a few reasons, I know I need to change my schedule but sleeping in, staying up late sometimes works best for my kids and I. We like mornings too but summer we've been off schedule. My family are bears. We all love to sleep. Except Levi whom loves to crawls into my bed each morning with his pillow pet.

Don't mind the naked boys but here is Levi and Caleb are with security blanket aka pillow pet

Today I had a early workout and feel great, my eyes are still dragging but I feel great. Last night our amazing group called the Posh Movement met at the trail and jogged/ran/walked. I did a slug run for 2 miles. The twins in tow and that wasn't easy but we have such an amazing group I got help pushing my boys! These ladies and the commitment I made to myself are the reasons why I get up at 6 am to workout because Mama Bear doesn't want to but I drag my butt up and Go!

Posh Movement! Can you see me and my boys?

 

 

Busy day today, just hope I can pick up my eyelids of the floor................
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak Isaiah 40:29

I am back!

Well I haven't blogged since the passing of my grandmother because it really impacted me. After she passed I was on a mission to make her proud of me and get healthy. I wanted to live as long as she had so I have been fighting for my life!!! My life has consisted of my family, party of 5: Hubby, myself , Benjamin(7), Caleb and Levi (3). It has also consisted of exercise and trying to help others doing the same plus all the extras this mom does. I def. been trying to embrace life to the fullest although many boulders can stand in our way. I am not going to blog too long but WILL try to blog everyday. I want to share my adventures of exercise, food, children, life, God, failures and blessings with you all. My hope is that this blog will continue to bless you and for you to acknowledge you are not alone, no matter what color, size, religion, etc you are........YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

Being a women, mother, a wife or anyone one of those things for that  matter is hard work! Today I share with you old pictures of me from over a year ago and the new me pictures that is still a work in progress.  Learning to put yourself first is the hardest step but it must be done. I want to live and be around for my family! Okay okay I won't go on today but believe me when I say I AM BACK!!

Down 55 lbs