A Matured Renewal

Been pretty good about staying away from some so much social media. I had a very "different" maybe even a bit stressful week. It was way off than the course I was intending on taking. We ate like kings and I think last two weeks we ate to many carbs. I feel gross, my husband feels gross and we don't like it nor the scale!! So as far as eating.......we are back to the basics which is great for me because we don't do big dinners, just easy stuff (shakes,salads,etc) We are passed the stage of cravings and more like cleanse me of these carbs Lord!

Speaking of cleansing this month has really continued to change me although I was a bit discouraged last week. My mother's health is in the Lord's hands. No she is not on her death bed. More info to come after some results are given this week. We believe in God's will and we will never give up but being on pins and needles is not easy. Please pray for my mom and her health.
Back to the cleansing being apart of an amazing parent bible study, getting into God's word, more prayers and attending a church that God has me at, all has really help cleanse me spiritually and help me feel renewed. Started attending a church to encourage my mom and sister's family to come since they like it there, never thought it would be my home.

I broke down in service holding my baby crying to God one service as I as singing praises to him and I said " God you have me here, renew me like a child Lord. I need you like when I was a teenager, Lord! My light has died down Lord and it's my fault but I need you to take that guard off my heart and let your light shine, let your love come through Lord! I need you! "  In that moment I felt free again.

I still felt blessed previously don't get me wrong and I may not have "serious" trials other may face but I was facing things like:
-Not full of God.....a feeling of my glass was almost empty
-a bit of depression due to stress, weight,
finances
-feeling like wasted space
-I am not a good enough mom
-anger/impatience

Slowly God has been changing me and my family. I feel renewed as a wife, mother and a women. I feel a mature renewal especially since I am older and wiser. Ha! I haven't felt this spiritual connected for years. I have been missing out. It's not that I haven't had a relationship with God it's just at a different level, a connection.....freedom....amazing!

So long story short cutting back on things that may seem part of me won't be easy but fulfilling God's plan for me will be worth it. What does that mean? It means I may not be  able to do things I am used to or love. Maybe it will be not going to every group exercise but will have to ride my bike, run, run in the back like today, make my own Zumba routine or could mean no more blogging or FB for awhile. It's about making changes so I can be more focused on God and on my family.  You may think duh, I  could have told you that or maybe you think I am making poor choices. What I do know is my heart feels renewed, my God has a hold of my life and I want to follow him. Who knows what God has planned but I do know I am going to be much more in prayer, family time, in doing his works.

On the main menu this week:
Woven-women's bible study
Parent bible study
Kid's instant lessons Th-Friday
Preschool, Speech, homeschool, community/school day for Ben
Football game, football practice
Exercise 5 days this week
Read the word, pray, another good book everyday
Clean house
Cook clean, cook easy
Continue to look for a part time job via at home
I know I have more on my plate but this is all I can think of at the moment ;)

Blessings and love to you all!
Oh I have to have Sundays last verse Jeremiah 29:11.........JUST DON'T GIVE UP!!

Holy Moly Donut Shop!

Holy Moly Donut Shop! If you know the Friday movies than you know this saying. Not Friday the 13th but Friday with Ice Cube. Hahaaaa! Well Holy Moly it's been almost a month from keeping you updated!!! Well there is alot going on right now in my life! Here are a few things:
1. Flag football in which my husband coaches....Go Oregon Ducks!!!
2. Homeschooling Ben and we are loving it except Math! Haha!
3. I won third place in the Posh movement but was happy because I didn't think I was going to win! 39 inches gone 5 lbs down!
4. My husband and I have been attending a Parent bible study called, Loving on Purpose.
5. I joined a new Challenge with our local gym Thrive and can't wait to get started on that!
6. I keep myself busy by doing a 30 day streaking challenge with some friends! Getting in 30 miles at least in 30 days! Streaking!!! Thanks Melissa V for inspiring me!

So that is 6 things that keep me busy but not everything.
I have two whirlwinds and a slow snail 7 year old.
With everything going on in my life I will try to blog when possible, it does keep me off other social media sites. It's so addiciting to sit there and live our lives from the internet. To think personal visits are almost gone since I can see pictures, your meals, your check-ins it's almost like I am with all my friends all over the world! It can be a good thing and a bad thing for me.  In order to grow into the parent I need to be and that my bible study had been teaching me I will be cutting back like a drug habit slowly at social media. I need to be more present.  I have a family to raise, I have a life to live, I have a beautiful trail right in front of my windows and as I gaze afar right now the leaves are slowly falling, they are changing colors and the fall breeze is coming. Those are the moments I want remember. Not someones check-in. I want to remember cleaning up 15 minutes before Dad gets home and all the boys work together to clean and when dad walks in it smells clean and he comes home to a peaceful household. I want to remember my naked twins hugging and them giggling!

So my goal to finish off this amazing year is to live my life to the fullest! Live to experience something new! Take a new breathe of air each day! The bible says Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD!!! Psalm 150:6

Yes life is not perfect there are some personal things I am battling and my family is battling but I am still going to praise him! He didn't and still doesn't give up me when I fail or have fallen! 

I plan to focus on being the best parent/wife God had made me to be which is making me change me all the way around and will also continue to focus on my health. I can't wait for this rest of the year...oh one last thing although I can use prayer in other areas with my family and I..... the one I would like to ask you all to pray for me is that I find a part time job or full time that I can work from home. I have been out of work for almost 3 years now it's time to start from home. Thank you!

I am using this verse again because it's what has really been placed in my heart this week!

I got a makeover because I won!! Thanks Posh Salon in Madera!

Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Psalm 51:10-12